Lately I have been waking up angry in the morning. It’s not because I woke up on the wrong side of the bed or had a bad night of sleep but it’s because of a more distinct purpose; my dreams. I have been having dreams of a life that is nothing like mine. I have been dreaming of waking up feeling care free and secure. I proceed to walk outside dressed in a suit into the beautiful sun as I push the unlock button to my sports car. As I go through my day, I am greeted by everyone I see with smiles and handshakes acting as if they are happy to even be in my presence. In this moment I feel like I am where I’m supposed to be with no more confusion or uncertainty.
The unfortunate thing is I wake up and realize that, in reality, it’s the first time I’ve opened my eyes. I never saw anything that I saw or felt any of the feelings I felt when I had woken up in my dream. The frustration I feel after waking up like this tears me apart. It leaves me disappointed with a false sense of accomplishment. But I wonder if it’s just a taste of something I’m bound to truly be feeling at some point. That thought only increases the feelings of disappointment and discouragement. Is my dream the closest thing that I have to living my ideal life? My ideal life is one that is filled with confidence, ambition, accomplishment, and happiness. Waking up to a reality in which these feelings are real is my true desire in life, so for now I’ll let the frustration push me to carry on until I reach my goal.
hey man, really good post, i've been feeling the same way lately too when i wake up. especially the dream about the suit and sports car, but mines an Audi R8
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